My Munchkin Part 2

Here is my munchkin yelling for me... I tried to get this to load with the other, but I couldn't get it to work. So enjoy another bout of my little munchkie munchkin.

My Munchkin

I had visitors for spring break and I will post pictures soon, however here is some video of my little munchkin saying Georgina she is adorable.

My Little Peanut

I know that it has been awhile since I posted, I have some pictures to show from my trip to Michigan, which was moving weekend. I got a chance to see my Peanut in her First Communion Dress. She is a pretty, pretty princess...

Look Out This Is Going To Be Ugly

I really don't know what I was thinking moving away and thinking I would be able to handle it, I mean I tried it before and didn't like it why would this time be different. Granted my landlords are extremely nice, but coming to a city where I know no one is just not something I am able to do on my own. I know that I am actually doing it, but I really hate every single second of being away and I'm not sure why. It's not like I would go out and do a ton of stuff in Ohio, but I think its probably the comfort of knowing I could and could call someone and see if they wanted to hang out.

I know this is bitchy and really not being positive like everyone keeps telling me I need to be, but I guess I need to vent. Although I have vented to many these past few days (thanks to everyone for listening to my rant) I guess I'm hoping that maybe this will help as well. I really just wish that I could find the right job in the right place and I know this could be the right place, but I really don't want to be this far away from friends and family. Missing out on the bigger milestones for my nieces and nephews or even the little ones. I realize that I haven't been around for some of these, these past years because of work schedules or whatever, but the idea that it wasn't that far of a drive and it might possibly work out was always there.

Now I just feel like I'm lost in an abyss and not really sure which way to swim to get over this horrendous mountain that I feel is in front of me. If anyone has any suggestions I would love to hear about them, because after today I really am going to need some help.

I was at the school for the second time and got to get into my classroom to clean and setup, which was like a clean house episode or hoarders. The students who I did see were not overly friendly. I know I am the new person and they are teenagers, but really hearing I hope your not our teacher, and having them spout off in the classroom at anytime was something I wasn't really expecting.

Hopefully this will all work out positively...I guess I will see...

Brace For Impact

So I know that I can be very pessimistic about my life. For some people it is hard to see that the glass is half empty! My roommate is a very optimistic person, which is great for her and I wish that I had more optimism in my life, but it always seems like I'm waiting for the other shoe to drop and it usually does with a big THUNK! Case in point I had an interview in Philadelphia, for a teaching position, which is a double-edged sword proposition. Anyway, my BFF's husband let me use a buddy pass to go which means flying stand-by that's fine I've done that before....

Well my flight was delayed so I didn't get to my 11:30 AM appointment until about 1:30PM since we landed late due to late flight crew. My car rental with one company was not usable since I only have a debt card they needed a credit card even though there website says they do take debit cards, but I was told if I had printed off the paper it would have told me they don't take debit cards. Why would I need to do this when the screen I'm looking at says they do take these types of cards. Anyway, I digress the company I ended up with held my bank account since I don't have good credit, and then to top it all off I took a wrong turn and I got lost along the way. The whole time I kept thinking this is why I feel the way I do and my roommate needs to be here to see this...I finally reached my destination for yes a 6 question interview, in which I believe I could have a job, but it would be like my Virginia experience basically. So then I had to get back for my return flight and of course I couldn't find a gas station anywhere to use for the rental. The time for my return flight was cut extremely close due to shuttle service and security in the airport (not that I'm complaining about security, but some airports really need to get some upgrades to provide a more efficient experience).

Anyway as I was telling the Crafter tonight about a magnet my roommate gave me for Christmas, that has a positive message on it it goes like this

Promise yourself to be so strong that nothing can disturb your peace of mind.
Look at the sunny side of everything and make your optimism come true. Think only of the best, work only for the best, and expect only the best. Forget the mistakes of the past and press on to the greater achievements of the future. Give so much time to the improvement of yourself that you have no time to criticize others. Live in the faith that the whole world is on your side so long as you are true to the best that is in you! ~Christian D. Larson

This has a very nice sentiment to it and I really appreciate it, however Crafty thought I said the magnet said Hang In There, which is a lot shorter of a saying and more applicable to me, to which my reply was it really should say Brace For Impact, which is really what my life is about! I am really trying to work on being more positive, but until then I think I will just keep my helmet in place cause sometimes the impact is really hard!

Oh My Peanut

There is a little girl that is 7 years old and she is known as my Peanut. Since the day she was born she has tugged at my heart (not that there aren't some other special ones in my life, but there has always been something extra special about this one.) I saw her after the hour she was born, she is my best friend's oldest and also my goddaughter. I got to hold her for hours when she was a baby and to this day she loves to sit and cuddle with me. Anyway, I lived with my best friend and her family for a little while when my Peanut was around 2 years old. I think she vaguely remembers this because she will ask when I am moving back in. Since I have had trouble getting an answer about a transfer and haven't been able to find a job and many other things that have gone wrong lately I told my best friend that I needed some luck and she said she had run out as well and that she would ask my Peanut for some of hers. A funny thing happened while my BFF and my Peanut were out for a walk all on her own my Peanut told my BFF that if I needed some of her luck she would give it to me, all without my BFF suggesting anything. I mean how can you not just smile, she is just too sweet.

It Was The Worst Phone Call We Ever Got...

Funeral's always bring out the stories for people, about the person that has passed or others that have gone before. Having attended a funeral this past week so close to the day my dad passed away had many people talking about him at the funeral home. One of my cousin's wives talked to me about getting the phone call from my cousin, and not being able to understand what he was saying because he was crying so hard.

At first I thought I don't want to hear this I have my own story, however I do realize that hearing this just reiterates how much my dad meant to so many people which was shown by the number of people that came to his funeral.

Although every year this day seems to be so hard, it helps some to know how much he affected peoples lives. We have missed having you around so much that it still really hurts to think of what you weren't here for Bub and Shyguy's births, E., Turtle's graduation from high school and my own graduation from college. Plus all the little things the birthdays, visits, helping with everything that you could and throwing a really good barbecue. If I could have just one more day, conversation, hug, and laugh, but I know that wouldn't work, because I will always just want one more day, conversation, hug, and laugh.